life coach

no, i don't have a life coach. but i learn something at every turn of my life. even seemingly benign events such as.....going to the grocery....i learn or remember something i could use. i listen to preachy songs. i read preachy books. i even go to a church every weekend (don't worry, it's totally compatible with my lack of belief in a god). i need reminders and boosters all the time. tomorrow i have to deal with something that might make me cry. in front of colleagues. i asked husband to give me a phrase i can stick in my head so i won't cry at the drop of a dime. he came up with "it's better to leave on a high note." i'm a cryer. i've learned running phrases through my head gets me through crucial times. *sometimes*

SAD. the summer edition

you know how people get seasonal affective disorder when the days are grey, cold and wintry? not me. i get it in the summer. no, really. i do. as life goes on, i've lost contact with friends through distance and growing apart. right now, i basically have none. none that i can call up and cry upon. sure, i have my husband...but he can only handle so much. he has his own shit like we all do. i hope this isn't a long summer.

i deleted facebook about a month ago. i could write a book about why i did it, but bullet points are more fun to read: *if i had a "sec" or a bit of downtime, well fb was my first go-to. problem was, i spend waste 2 hours instead of that "sec." *through the course of a day i would think in funny phrases to post for the world to see. (first sign of self-esteem issues, i'm sure of it.) *friends from elementary school. it felt weird to become friends with them online, but to intimately know what they do every day and what their children look like in every outfit they own made me feel like a stalker. *on that previous thought, don't get me wrong i TOTALLY blame the parents for posting thousands of their kid's pics online. but for me to think i should look through all of them since they "just posted" those pics was equally sick. *oh, back to elementary friends. we didn't stay friends for a reason. so...why fb friends? i never -did- get it even though i played the game for what?...5 years. *don't get me started on fb postings that people didn't talk about in real life. to be continuously continued....

so this is my new blog. why the *unblessed life?* well, i've noticed most mom blogs have something to do with god. mine will not. mine will simply be about life, my unblessed life because well--if you don't believe in god--you can't be blessed, no? i'm totally ok with this.